I could also buy some passable property in Sacramento and become a workaholic for a few years.
I could stay right here and be a workaholic with a higher-than-average wage, and suffer in almost every other regard.
I could loan my car to my sister, so she doesn't have to drive her SUV, and I could loan my computer to a friend. Join the Peace Corps. Join a New Zealand nature conservatory. Discard my status as an engineer.
I could sit up all night worrying that I'm not good enough for my own future, or that I'm too good for it.
I could repeat to myself that I will survive in any case, that it ultimately doesn't matter, that the important thing is to keep a clear head.
I could have tea.
I should get back to work...