Garrett (garote) wrote,

Some thoughts

Recently I was chatting with someone online who had just been through a difficult breakup, with a fellow who was rather abusive. I made an observation that, in retrospect, was pretty interesting:

"In a good relationship, I should not HAVE to worry about acting differently in the past for the sake of the present. I should be able to act in the present, to fix any problem at hand.
And if I feel like I can't, if I find myself obsessing over the past instead, then it is time to move on, to someone or something I am able to work with."

For a long time, I was, basically, exhausted, and unable to work on anything. It was because I was in a situation that I did not know how to fix.

On Monday, I went out, by myself, to a pub called the Starry Plough, and took a free Irish dancing lesson. I got embarrassingly sweaty, but I had a good time. This is what I need more of. I need to be out in the world making face-to-face interaction with other people, so I don't stay wedged in my own head, and buried in work.

I haven't had a long vacation from work in ... let's see ... ten months? Eleven? Perhaps it's time for a bike trip, a real adventure, despite the turning of the weather. I wonder if it's not too late to head through Yosemite and Death Valley...
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