I drive my little car over the hill and listen to radio shows. I changed the oil in the car today - it needed it. I'd been getting lazy about that. I could feel the sluggishness of the engine when I turned the key, the gears laboring in the old oil. It was time. In fact almost a thousand miles overdue, according to the little windshield sticker. I didn't have a lot of time before work so I went to a drive-through shop and overpaid for it. Then I hit traffic on 17 and ended up very late for work. But that was alright - I just stayed late to compensate.
I'm settling in there. Not settling in as in relaxing - I'm still moving just as fast as I possibly can to keep pace with the fellows in my department - but it does indeed have that marathon feel to it. It doesn't feel like a race against impending doom, more like a skipping around on the jet-stream of work, swaying around obstacles or dismantling them with ease. The contrast is so great from my old job that sometimes I have trouble remembering what I did with all those hours in the day. How could I have passed so much time, and created so little, relatively?
Knowing that I can fit into this environment has helped me feel secure in my future prospects. Before I wasn't sure I could cut it anywhere else. Now I know that, no matter where I go, the challenge will be in having the patience to slow down again. It's an odd reversal. I always took myself as the laid-back type, the type to take the easy route. Not that a job is hard when you enjoy it this much. It also helps to know that the work I do is important. This team of less than a dozen people writes the code that renders everything on the screen of a Mac. When a software update rolls out, and ten million Macs suddenly render graphics a little bit faster, it's because of this group. Just thinking of the time and electricity we save out there in the world makes even the smallest optimization worthwhile.
But I ramble on, and the fire is burning down, and the track has finished, and it is time for bed. I'll pick this up again later.