Mmnnng. The person I was interested in is "taken", and it took me far too long to get a clue and notice that. All the waiting, for the right situation to say something in. ... Bad logistics. See, some things are too important not to do in person, but... Should I have tried over the phone? No, actually that was impossible too. Got myself tangled up inside again, hoping for the time. Yeah, it was stupid of me.
Now I feel more imprisoned in Carlsbad than ever. Stomach burning again. Glad for the happiness of others, but personally: feel utterly alone.